adults recovering from eating disorders


Defining Mental Hunger 5

There is a podcast about mental hunger here if you prefer listening to reading: http://tabithafarrar.com/2017/10/defining-mental-hunger-important-anorexia-recovery-podcast/ What is mental hunger? Mental hunger is thinking about food. You might not even be thinking about eating food, but you may be thinking about food nonetheless. It can also be thinking about things that lead […]


Before recovery vs. after recovery

Before recovery vs. after recovery

In this podcast Tabitha answers questions about life before recovery versus life after recovery from Anorexia. Topics covered include: – Dining out – Social life – Feeling cold – Eating with others Support this podcast via Patreon! You can support this podcast and ensure the continuation of it by pledging […]


Anorexia Recovery as an Adult: Teenage Brat Syndrome 3

Me before Matt is home from work: I miss Matt. Hope he gets home soon. He’s so lovely.  Matt: “Hey Babe, how was your day?” Me: OMG why are you always asking me questions. Can’t you just leave me alone! I wasn’t much of a teenage brat when I was […]


Defining Restriction. Defining Unrestricted Eating

  In this podcast, Tabitha talks about restriction, and unrestricted eating. Restrictive eating disorders such as Anorexia are often misrepresented as total restriction and not eating. This is often not the case. Many people with Anorexia can eat seemingly “normal” amounts of food and still be operating under rules of […]


Anorexia Recovery: Becoming Recovery-Body Proud 5

Last week I wrote about The New Body Problem in Anorexia recovery. Today I am writing about the other side: becoming recovery-body proud. Here is the paradox, before I started recovery, and even when I was supposedly at a “recovered” BMI,  the thought of being in a larger body petrified […]

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Stomach problems in Anorexia recovery

Stomach problems in Anorexia recovery 14

As if recovery wasn’t already difficult enough from a mental standpoint, there are often physical discomforts too! This blog post is about stomach in Anorexia recovery. Reading this blog post will not make your tummy feel better, but it may provide you with some knowledge that will make you feel […]


Anorexia Recovery: The problem with “intuitive eating” 13

I’ll preface this blog post with this: this post is about intuitive eating and Anorexia recovery. If you don’t have Anorexia, go ahead and do all the intuitive eating that your intuition asks you to do —this post is not about you. I agree that intuitive eating may be a […]

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Anorexia and exercise

Anorexia and Exercise 2: The lower-level movement trap 7

I wrote about Anorexia and exercise last week and the case for cold turkey. This post is the follow up to that and it addresses lower-level, movement. If you read the last post and thought “well that doesn’t apply to me because I don’t exercise excessively,” this post is for […]


Exercise and Anorexia: The Case for Cold Turkey 17

Dr: “Are you eating?” Me: “Yes” Dr: “Hmm … Well. you are still very underweight, so maybe try eating a bit more?” Me: “Sure, I’ll try that.” What my Dr never asked me about was the extent that I was exercising. I was eating, but that was on the condition […]

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: The problems with nutritional science

Anorexia Recovery as an Adult: Letting go of nutritional science 14

I have a nutrition qualification, but I don’t use it. In fact, what I was taught about nutrition on that course set me back a good couple of years in recovery. I was taught that fat was bad, calories should be minimized, meals should be planned as to balance macronutrients, and […]


Anorexia is a Obsessive Compulsive Spectrum Disorder and should be treated as such … 10

While it may be broadly understood that effective knowledge, diagnostics, treatment and resources for eating disorders are lacking, I think that until certain parts of this system are conceptually overhauled we will continue to only see change and improvements happen slowly, and on the fringe rather than in the mainstream treatment model. […]

Anorexia is a Obsessive Compulsive Spectrum Disorder

Anorexia recovery and food rules

Anorexia recovery and food rules: Sometimes it gets worse before it gets better 6

Anorexia: You can’t have that bagel for lunch. That would be a breach of Rule #382 Me: Rule #382? Anorexia: Yes, rule #382: Bagel for breakfast cannot be followed by bagel for lunch. Rule #382 Me: Since when did that rule exist? That wasn’t there before. Anorexia: You weren’t eating […]


Adults in Recovery Workshop Coming Up!

Not a usual post from me.  I just want to tell you about the upcoming Boulder, Colorado workshop I am offering May 20-12. Actually first of all I want to tell you about a free ED-ucation on Eating Disorders Seminar that I am presenting at in Canada next week. I […]


Anorexia recovery as an adult

Anorexia Recovery as an Adult: My body is not a calculator … and mental hunger counts! 19

When we start trying to control weight, food intake, and energy balance artificially we are messing with a system what we know too little about. Nutritional science is too immature to really know how and when the body uses energy and for what. In recovery from Anorexia as an adult […]


Anorexia Recovery: What about when I am not hungry? 6

I got the below email and decided that I would answer it in blog post because I think that these are questions that many adults in Anorexia recovery will have from time to time. Other than removing the writer’s name I have posted the email in it’s entirety. My responses […]

Anorexia Recovery: What about when I am not hungry?

Living paycheck to paycheck

The trouble with target weights in Anorexia recovery: Living paycheck to paycheck 4

There are certainly problems that arise with “target weights” in Anorexia recovery. The biggest, overarching theme is that they are set too low. I wrote about this in length in this post titled Anorexia Recovery: Why is it that treatment seems to serve my eating disorder better than it serves my […]


Anorexia Recovery: Why is it that treatment seems to serve my eating disorder better than it serves my recovery? 9

I don’t expect everyone to read this and agree with it. The TL;DR is that I believe that there is a fear that infests many eating disorder treatment approaches and this leads to inadequate intake prescriptions and target weights that do not serve individuals in recovery.  Please read the whole post […]

Anorexia Recovery: Why is it that treatment seems to serve my eating disorder better than it serves my recovery?

Anorexia: Mid-Recovery Clusterfuck (Charlie Foxtrot )

Anorexia: Mid-Recovery Clusterfuck (Charlie Foxtrot) 2

This post contains swear words. This is not an apology, I’m just letting you know. 😀 When I went through what I refer to now as my “Mid-Recovery Clusterfuck” I didn’t know what it was. I thought that — despite considering myself at the furthest end of the insanity scale […]


Finding Recovery Motivation — Scrapping the Anorexia Identity 7

One of the questions I get asked the most by both sufferers and parents/partners of sufferers is; “how did you find the motivation to recover?” often followed closely by, “how do I find the motivation to recover?” or “how does he/she find the motivation to recover?” These are very important questions […]

Scrapping the Anorexia Identity

Anorexia Recovery As An Adult: School Of Failure 5

I’m not someone who berates herself for not getting everything right. Contrary to popular belief about people with Anorexia, I am not a perfectionist, not Type A, and don’t really care if I get an A, B, or C so long as it is a pass. I don’t like failing […]


Eating Disorder Recovery and Family Life: Picky Eaters and Innocent triggers

Today I am going to look at a somewhat awkward but nonetheless important idea: the notion that the eating behaviours of children could in fact act as triggers or stumbling points for the a parent in recovery from a restrictive eating disorder such as Anorexia.   Picky eating? Interestingly, according […]


Eating Disorder Awareness Week 2017 Roundup 1

Phew. That was a busy week. In case you missed them, here is a recap on the podcasts and other projects we put out there this week. I’ve listed the podcasts out below. I think that the most exciting thing that came out of this week for me personally were […]


Anorexia Recovery Eating: There is never too much food 42

When I went through extreme hunger in my recovery from Anorexia, my eating disorder told me that nobody on earth had ever experienced this. Mostly it told me that nobody on earth had eaten as much as I was eating. Ever. Since working as a recovery coach for lots of […]

Anorexia Recovery Eating: There is never too much food

Anorexia Recovery Binges: You don't have Binge Eating Disorder!

Anorexia Recovery Binges: You do NOT have Binge Eating Disorder! 19

When in recovery from a restrictive eating disorder such as Anorexia Nervosa or a subset of it, many of us experience something I like to refer to as “recovery binges.” This post is written from the point of view of a person who has recovered from Anorexia, but can be […]


Just Launched: Online (Global) Meal Support Service for Eating Disorders 3

It doesn’t matter how you try and skirt around it, there is one truth that exists for every restrictive eating disorder (Anorexia nervosa, bulimia nervosa, EDNS etc): You have to treat an eating disorder with food first!  But for many of us eating is so hard! We get intense anxiety […]

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