eating disorder recovery

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Recovery commitments: Allow it to be simple

Over the next couple of weeks I will be posting blogs focusing on “recovery commitments.” These recovery commitments posts will be outlining some of the most common reasons that people in recovery get anxious and stressed and suggesting some simplifications for those moments. I believe that one of the fundamental […]

partner eating disorder

When you partner has an eating disorder: Avoiding intimacy

This blog is for partners of adults with eating disorders. However, I’m writing it from the perspective of a person with an eating disorder. I was a person with an eating disorder who loved her partner, but there were times when my actions might have given the opposite impression. So, […]

Movement Cold Turkey

Complusive Movement Cold Turkey: Creating space for new things

I mentioned the uncomfortable silence that stopping the compulsions and rituals that many of us with anorexia establish in a previous blog on lower-level movement here. This post is an elaboration on that. A “spiritually enlightened” person once said this to me: “You have to first create space for new […]

stealing

Why my eating disorder turned me into a grocery thief [Podcast]

Personal story time! Not everyone who is suffering from long-term malnutrition turns to stealing, but I think it is a lot more prevalent than most people assume it is. It makes sense why a brain that believes resources are scarce would feel the need to take without giving anything away. […]

scarcity mindset

Your Brain on Malnutrition: Scarcity Mindset

I’ve done a load of YouTube videos on “your brain on malnutrition” but this is such an important aspect of understanding your anorexia or eating disorder behaviours that I’m going to start a series on it in this blog too. Scarcity mindset is what your brain adopts when it believes […]

Tabitha Farrar

New Book: Rehabilitate, Rewire, Recover!

Note: this is available for Kindle pre-order right now. Give it about 10 days and the print option will also be available.  I have put all my blogs, podcasts, and YouTune channel information into one book! This book is for adults in recovery from anorexia, as the recovery process is […]

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Stop gaslighting eating disorder patients (and parents)

Gaslighting = manipulate (someone) by psychological means into questioning their own sanity. Gaslighting is usually thought of in a domestic abuse setting but also happens in many other settings — including therapy. This sort of behaviour is not limited to eating disorder patients. It’s the story of therapists using their authority, […]

Recovery Stories: Elisa Oras, feast eating, and coming out the other side [Podcast]

  In this podcast Tabitha talks to Elisa Oras about recovery.  Topics covered include: – Anorexia in people in larger bodies – Bulimia, and binge/purge subtypes – Feast eating in recovery – Eating lots of food! – Non-traditional recovery routes – The important of listening to your body and allowing […]

Rachel Millner: School Dinner Policing, BMI Report Cards, and the importance of a HAES approach for kids

In this episode, Tabitha talks to the wonderful Rachel Millner about fat-phobia in schools: BMI report cards School dinner policing Health at Every Size Body Diversity Fat-phobia How to trust kids to eat Find out more about Rachel Millner here –> http://www.rachelmillner.com/ Here is a list of useful books from Rachel […]

Recovered. Not perpetually “in recovery.” Not forever “recovering.”

I believe that full recovery is possible for every person who is currently suffering from or in recover from anorexia. Here’s my two cents on why I don’t thing that the the “in recovery,” or “remission” rhetoric is particularly helpful. I’m sometimes glad I didn’t read any recovery blogs before […]

Defining Mental Hunger

There is a podcast about mental hunger here if you prefer listening to reading: http://tabithafarrar.com/2017/10/defining-mental-hunger-important-anorexia-recovery-podcast/ What is mental hunger? Mental hunger is thinking about food. You might not even be thinking about eating food, but you may be thinking about food nonetheless. It can also be thinking about things that lead […]

Ask Dr G: Eating Disorders and Metabolism [Podcast]

In this podcast, Tabitha talks to Dr Gaudiani on the topic of metabolism in relation to anorexia and other restrictive eating disorders. We talk about: How the metabolism works How restriction affects the metabolism Mental hunger Physical hunger How to eat in recovery to boost your metabolism About The Gaudiani […]

Defining Restriction. Defining Unrestricted Eating

  In this podcast, Tabitha talks about restriction, and unrestricted eating. Restrictive eating disorders such as Anorexia are often misrepresented as total restriction and not eating. This is often not the case. Many people with Anorexia can eat seemingly “normal” amounts of food and still be operating under rules of […]

Anorexia Recovery, Weight Restoration and Energy Debt

Anorexia Recovery, Weight Restoration, and Energy Debt

I published a podcast this week titled, Energy Deficit | Energy Debt | Target Weights | Weight vs State Restoration, and I will explain Energy Debt in detail in this post. Energy Debt: The accumulation of the effects of long-term energy deficit such as lack of bodily repair and maintenance […]

Mental Health

Mental health patients do not fail treatment. Treatment fails patients.

You did not fail treatment. Treatment failed you. I lose count of how many times I say this. I had to say it again yesterday to someone who was convinced that she could not make a full recovery because she had been in and out of treatment so many times. […]

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Exercise Trackers, BMI, Obesity, and Anorexia Treatment

In this podcast Tabitha Farrar talks to Courtney Simpson about the work that she is doing looking at fitness tracker use amoungst people with eating disorders. We cover a lot of topics in this podcast that was originally about fitness trackers and the number of people with Anoreixa who use […]

Stomach problems in Anorexia recovery

Stomach problems in Anorexia recovery

As if recovery wasn’t already difficult enough from a mental standpoint, there are often physical discomforts too! This blog post is about stomach in Anorexia recovery. Reading this blog post will not make your tummy feel better, but it may provide you with some knowledge that will make you feel […]

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Anorexia Recovery: The problem with “intuitive eating”

I’ll preface this blog post with this: this post is about intuitive eating and Anorexia recovery. If you don’t have Anorexia, go ahead and do all the intuitive eating that your intuition asks you to do —this post is not about you. I agree that intuitive eating may be a […]

Exercise and anorexia

Exercise and Anorexia: The Case for Cold Turkey

Dr: “Are you eating?” Me: “Yes” Dr: “Hmm … Well. you are still very underweight, so maybe try eating a bit more?” Me: “Sure, I’ll try that.” What my Dr never asked me about was the extent that I was exercising. I was eating, but that was on the condition […]

Anorexia recovery and food rules

Anorexia recovery and food rules: Sometimes it gets worse before it gets better

Anorexia: You can’t have that bagel for lunch. That would be a breach of Rule #382 Me: Rule #382? Anorexia: Yes, rule #382: Bagel for breakfast cannot be followed by bagel for lunch. Rule #382 Me: Since when did that rule exist? That wasn’t there before. Anorexia: You weren’t eating […]

Anorexia recovery as an adult

Anorexia Recovery as an Adult: My body is not a calculator … and mental hunger counts!

When we start trying to control weight, food intake, and energy balance artificially we are messing with a system what we know too little about. Nutritional science is too immature to really know how and when the body uses energy and for what. In recovery from Anorexia as an adult […]

Living paycheck to paycheck

The trouble with target weights in Anorexia recovery: Living paycheck to paycheck

There are certainly problems that arise with “target weights” in Anorexia recovery. The biggest, overarching theme is that they are set too low. I wrote about this in length in this post titled Anorexia Recovery: Why is it that treatment seems to serve my eating disorder better than it serves my […]

Anorexia Recovery: Why is it that treatment seems to serve my eating disorder better than it serves my recovery?

Anorexia Recovery: Why is it that treatment seems to serve my eating disorder better than it serves my recovery?

I don’t expect everyone to read this and agree with it. The TL;DR is that I believe that there is a fear that infests many eating disorder treatment approaches and this leads to inadequate intake prescriptions and target weights that do not serve individuals in recovery.  Please read the whole post […]

Anorexia: Mid-Recovery Clusterfuck (Charlie Foxtrot )

Anorexia: Mid-Recovery Clusterfuck (Charlie Foxtrot)

This post contains swear words. This is not an apology, I’m just letting you know. 😀 When I went through what I refer to now as my “Mid-Recovery Clusterfuck” I didn’t know what it was. I thought that — despite considering myself at the furthest end of the insanity scale […]

Scrapping the Anorexia Identity

Finding Recovery Motivation — Scrapping the Anorexia Identity

One of the questions I get asked the most by both sufferers and parents/partners of sufferers is; “how did you find the motivation to recover?” often followed closely by, “how do I find the motivation to recover?” or “how does he/she find the motivation to recover?” These are very important questions […]