lazy adjective 1. unwilling to work or use energy. This year, "unwilling to work or use energy," sounds about right when it comes to writing, reading, accounting, or anything related to my computer. It's been the most unproductive year I've had in many. Generally I am...

Not much that makes me feel like slamming my head against the wall as much as when I hear that someone's therapist has told them that their hunger is not actually because they are hungry, but because they are trying to fill a void in their life. "Psychological...

I had a teddy-bear shaped red plastic lunchbox in primary school. Mum packed it for me. Generally a sandwich, yoghurt, piece of fruit, bag of crisps, biscuits, jaffa cakes, and a chocolate bar or sweets. If it was a good day, cake. There were no lunchbox police when I...

I am seeing a lot of memes etc on social media pointing out to the rest of the world that this pandemic is particularly difficult for people with eating disorders. This post isn't doing to be like that. I just don't believe that sort messaging effectively helps...

TL;DR: You will have better sex if you eat more.

Link to a video I made on this topic: https://youtu.be/07j4fIwjRkg I've been told off in the past for being honest about the fact I recovered fully without any professional help. I've been told this can make people feel like they too need to try and recover without...

You know how difficult and stressful it feels right? You're always trying to work out the "right" way to eat. It never feels right though. So you do more research, and you ask more people. Maybe you talk to another dietitian or some new diet guru. You're forever...

Mental hunger is your body cuing you to eat. Mental hunger is important. It is a very valid communication from your body as your body attempts to bring the desire to eat into your consciousness. I personally think that physical hunger is beside the point if you are in...

I cried after talking to your parents tonight. I often cry after talking to parents. There are a hundred reasons why. Maybe I will be able to outline some of them here. The main reason, is usually because I can't answer the one question that they so desperately wanted...

Yes, you still have to stop complusive movement. Even if it is tiny. Even if it if just walking, or cleaning the house. Even if you already gave up running and your gym membership. If there are still elements of compulsive movement in your life, yes, you need to stop....

I wonder why, when it comes to mental health, people often interpret me saying "you are responsible for your actions and reactions" as "you have to do this alone?" If I were writing about physical health, nobody would assume that by saying "you are responsible for...

If you are under-eating — and by that I mean eating less than you truly want to, which, by the way, you can be doing even if you are eating everything on your meal plan, and if you are eating more than you were last week, and if you are eating five time more than your friends and family — then you are actively restricting.

My eating disorder used to tell me that I was special and better because I would never allow myself a rest. It would tell me that giving in to desire was weak, and that I had the special edge over everyone else because I knew how to push myself and not give in.

None of that is true. I wasn’t better. I wasn’t special. I was fucking sick.

In the process of getting better, I had to accept my unsuppressed bodyweight, but that wasn’t the only thing my eating disorder brain didn’t like. It didn’t like my unsuppressed personality either. I had to stick up for that in the same way I had to stick up for my body. I had to repel my own judgment over both. I had to work on accepting both, and understanding that suppressing food led to suppressing me.

We want to disrupt the model. We want to provide a place for adults who want to get better and want to re-learn how to trust and not be at war with their bodies. We want to create a space that doesn’t devalue your experience just because you might not look like the stereotypical perception of what a person with an eating disorder looks like. We want to empower you to know that you can do this, you can make the correct decisions for your recovery, you can fully recover, and it can be sustainable.

In this podcast Tabitha talks to Donna about her experience of bariatric surgery and eating disorder recovery

It’s not your fault that you hold this bias/belief that thinner is better. It has been taught to you from an early age. You have been swimming in fatphobia all your life, so it is inevitable that you swallowed a lot of it. You probably started absorbing it in the womb, when you were a captive audience listening to your mother tell people about how she intended to lose the baby weight as soon as you were born.

You can download and listen to this podcast here: https://eatingdisorderrecoverypodcast.podbean.com/e/atypical-anorexia/

Fear is the biggest obstacle in recovery for most of us. Most commonly, fear of weight gain. For many of us, fear of our unsuppressed bodyweight is what keeps us circling through actions that are intended to suppress weight gain. Fear of change also factors in and keeps us taking actions that we know are not good for us. 

If you no longer have an active eating disorder, and you no longer have exercise compulsions, and you can trust yourself to do what you want to do and what is right for you. This may or may not mean movement that makes you feel good and happy. If you don’t have any ulterior motives, you will move if you want to, and not move if you don’t want to.

You have to be recovered before you start again. Recovery is the base for everything good in life. Achieve recovery first. Take your time. 

In this podcast Tabitha Farrar talks to Hannah, about eating disorders and cerebral palsy.

In this podcast, Tabitha Farrar has a discussion with Shan Guisinger — author of the Adapt to Flee Famine paper — about the biological fear of eating response. 

lazy adjective 1. unwilling to work or use energy. This year, "unwilling to work or use energy," sounds about right when it comes to writing, reading, accounting, or anything related to my computer. It's been the most unproductive year I've had in many. Generally I am...

Not much that makes me feel like slamming my head against the wall as much as when I hear that someone's therapist has told them that their hunger is not actually because they are hungry, but because they are trying to fill a void in their life. "Psychological...

I had a teddy-bear shaped red plastic lunchbox in primary school. Mum packed it for me. Generally a sandwich, yoghurt, piece of fruit, bag of crisps, biscuits, jaffa cakes, and a chocolate bar or sweets. If it was a good day, cake. There were no lunchbox police when I...

I am seeing a lot of memes etc on social media pointing out to the rest of the world that this pandemic is particularly difficult for people with eating disorders. This post isn't doing to be like that. I just don't believe that sort messaging effectively helps...

TL;DR: You will have better sex if you eat more.

Link to a video I made on this topic: https://youtu.be/07j4fIwjRkg I've been told off in the past for being honest about the fact I recovered fully without any professional help. I've been told this can make people feel like they too need to try and recover without...

You know how difficult and stressful it feels right? You're always trying to work out the "right" way to eat. It never feels right though. So you do more research, and you ask more people. Maybe you talk to another dietitian or some new diet guru. You're forever...

Mental hunger is your body cuing you to eat. Mental hunger is important. It is a very valid communication from your body as your body attempts to bring the desire to eat into your consciousness. I personally think that physical hunger is beside the point if you are in...

I cried after talking to your parents tonight. I often cry after talking to parents. There are a hundred reasons why. Maybe I will be able to outline some of them here. The main reason, is usually because I can't answer the one question that they so desperately wanted...

Yes, you still have to stop complusive movement. Even if it is tiny. Even if it if just walking, or cleaning the house. Even if you already gave up running and your gym membership. If there are still elements of compulsive movement in your life, yes, you need to stop....

I wonder why, when it comes to mental health, people often interpret me saying "you are responsible for your actions and reactions" as "you have to do this alone?" If I were writing about physical health, nobody would assume that by saying "you are responsible for...

If you are under-eating — and by that I mean eating less than you truly want to, which, by the way, you can be doing even if you are eating everything on your meal plan, and if you are eating more than you were last week, and if you are eating five time more than your friends and family — then you are actively restricting.

My eating disorder used to tell me that I was special and better because I would never allow myself a rest. It would tell me that giving in to desire was weak, and that I had the special edge over everyone else because I knew how to push myself and not give in.

None of that is true. I wasn’t better. I wasn’t special. I was fucking sick.

In the process of getting better, I had to accept my unsuppressed bodyweight, but that wasn’t the only thing my eating disorder brain didn’t like. It didn’t like my unsuppressed personality either. I had to stick up for that in the same way I had to stick up for my body. I had to repel my own judgment over both. I had to work on accepting both, and understanding that suppressing food led to suppressing me.

We want to disrupt the model. We want to provide a place for adults who want to get better and want to re-learn how to trust and not be at war with their bodies. We want to create a space that doesn’t devalue your experience just because you might not look like the stereotypical perception of what a person with an eating disorder looks like. We want to empower you to know that you can do this, you can make the correct decisions for your recovery, you can fully recover, and it can be sustainable.

In this podcast Tabitha talks to Donna about her experience of bariatric surgery and eating disorder recovery

It’s not your fault that you hold this bias/belief that thinner is better. It has been taught to you from an early age. You have been swimming in fatphobia all your life, so it is inevitable that you swallowed a lot of it. You probably started absorbing it in the womb, when you were a captive audience listening to your mother tell people about how she intended to lose the baby weight as soon as you were born.

You can download and listen to this podcast here: https://eatingdisorderrecoverypodcast.podbean.com/e/atypical-anorexia/

Fear is the biggest obstacle in recovery for most of us. Most commonly, fear of weight gain. For many of us, fear of our unsuppressed bodyweight is what keeps us circling through actions that are intended to suppress weight gain. Fear of change also factors in and keeps us taking actions that we know are not good for us. 

If you no longer have an active eating disorder, and you no longer have exercise compulsions, and you can trust yourself to do what you want to do and what is right for you. This may or may not mean movement that makes you feel good and happy. If you don’t have any ulterior motives, you will move if you want to, and not move if you don’t want to.

You have to be recovered before you start again. Recovery is the base for everything good in life. Achieve recovery first. Take your time.