My cold turkey journey: Fear

My cold turkey journey: Fear

I've talked about stopping compulsive exercise. I get lots of questions on this topic, and requests to elaborate. Here is a little more information on how cold turkey played out for me. In this post I will focus on the obstacles to cold turkey. The things that scared...

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Stop gaslighting eating disorder patients (and parents)

Stop gaslighting eating disorder patients (and parents)

Gaslighting = manipulate (someone) by psychological means into questioning their own sanity. Gaslighting is usually thought of in a domestic abuse setting but also happens in many other settings — including therapy. This sort of behaviour is not limited to eating...

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Podcast on eating disorders and yoga

I recently was interviewed for The Connected Yoga Teacher. You can listen to the podcast here: We cover my story with anorexia, men with eating disorders, veganism, the words that we use around body size, food, and diet, in the yoga studio and the world, and a ton...

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Why BMI is Bullshit

Why BMI is Bullshit

Oh, the magic "BMI 19." "Get to a BMI 19 and you'll be healthy," they tell us. Bullshit. Utter crap. Hear me out... Body Mass Index (BMI) is a very basic, and arguably erroneous, way to estimate the amount of fat that a person has on their body based on their height...

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You can be underweight at any size

You can be underweight at any size

  Underweight = being at a weight that is lower than the weight that your body would be if you did not suppress it with restrictive eating or exercise. So, taken from my definition of what...

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Don’t be the martyr! Relax! [Video]

Don’t be the martyr! Relax! [Video]

When I was in a state of malnutrition I was forever running about doing chores. I never felt okay about sitting and relaxing. As I explain in this video. Life doesn't have to be like that! Did you know I have a YouTube channel?  [sm-youtube-subscribe]   ...

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Happy Thanksgiving 2017!

Happy Thanksgiving 2017!

I know this is a tough day for many of you. I made a little video to cheer you along, and to also remind you of the importance of not doing what I call "event restricting." Event restriction is when you "save" calories for later. You perceive that you will eat more...

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Defining Mental Hunger

Defining Mental Hunger

There is a podcast about mental hunger here if you prefer listening to reading: http://tabithafarrar.com/2017/10/defining-mental-hunger-important-anorexia-recovery-podcast/ What is mental hunger? Mental hunger is thinking about food. You might not even be thinking...

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A note for yoga instructors, about eating disorders

A note for yoga instructors, about eating disorders

I recently was interviewed for The Connected Yoga Teacher. You can listen to the podcast here: We cover my story with anorexia, men with eating disorders, veganism, the words that we use around body size, food, and diet, in the yoga studio and the world, and a ton...

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A couple of recent podcasts …

A couple of recent podcasts …

  I'm skiving off publishing a podcast this week because I am on holiday with family in England. We were in Manchester for my sister-in-laws wedding last week, and now are down in Wiltshire staying with my parents in a tiny village. I've basically spent the last...

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Anorexia Recovery as an Adult: Teenage Brat Syndrome

Anorexia Recovery as an Adult: Teenage Brat Syndrome

Me before Matt is home from work: I miss Matt. Hope he gets home soon. He's so lovely.  Matt: "Hey Babe, how was your day?" Me: OMG why are you always asking me questions. Can't you just leave me alone! I wasn't much of a teenage brat when I was a teenager. Probably...

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Anorexia Made Me Tell Pork Pies

Anorexia Made Me Tell Pork Pies

To my US friends, "pork pies" is rhyming slang for "lies." (Pork pies are also these delicious little meat filled shortcrust pastry pies, which incidentally I refused to eat when I had Anorexia. Sod's law that now I am recovered and would like to eat pork pies I live...

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Anorexia Fears: Eating More

Anorexia Fears: Eating More

I hated being underweight. I hated that if I left the house, schoolkids would shout "skinny freak" at me as I walked past. I hated that I couldn't sit down without it hurting. I wanted to gain weight. But, I feared gaining weight, and I feared eating more.   I...

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Anorexia and Kleptomania

Anorexia and Kleptomania

klep·to·ma·ni·a noun a recurrent urge to steal, typically without regard for need or profit. This is a hard post to have to write. It's important as shame is a present enough feeling for a person in recovery from Anorexia as it is — thinking that you are a monster...

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Anorexia Recovery, Weight Restoration, and Energy Debt

Anorexia Recovery, Weight Restoration, and Energy Debt

I published a podcast this week titled, Energy Deficit | Energy Debt | Target Weights | Weight vs State Restoration, and I will explain Energy Debt in detail in this post. Energy Debt: The accumulation of the effects of long-term energy deficit such as lack of bodily...

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Your Brain on Malnutrition: Eating Disorders and Money

Your Brain on Malnutrition: Eating Disorders and Money

I know I have blogged about eating disorders and money before. I have even done some podcasts on it. But I want to make sure that people link anxiety around spending money, and the scarcity mindset that food restriction creates. Scarcity mindset: For the evolving...

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Your Brain on Malnutrition: Anorexia and Hoarding

Your Brain on Malnutrition: Anorexia and Hoarding

I blogged about the scarcity mindset last week. Now I will go a little more into some of the more common behavioral repercussions that I have noticed people with malnourished brains tend to develop. This blog post is about hoarding. Not all of you reading this will...

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Your Brain on Malnutrition: Scarcity Mindset

Your Brain on Malnutrition: Scarcity Mindset

I've done a load of YouTube videos on "your brain on malnutrition" but this is such an important aspect of understanding your anorexia or eating disorder behaviours that I'm going to start a series on it in this blog too. Scarcity mindset is what your brain adopts...

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Mid-Recovery Clusterfuck: Body Guilt

Mid-Recovery Clusterfuck: Body Guilt

I've written about Mid-Recovery Clusterfuck stuff before, more in the sense of the emotions that blow up when your brain starts to care more about other people and life experiences than it does about obsessing over food and exercise. And the discomfort and grief that...

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Lower-level movement and why it is scary to be still

Lower-level movement and why it is scary to be still

Lower-level movement After stopping exercise, it became clear that my lower-level movement urges — walking, cleaning, shopping-without-buying, etc — were increasing. It took me a while to work out I had to cease responding to all these compulsions too. More on...

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Let’s talk about sex … (and relationships)

Let’s talk about sex … (and relationships)

Salt and Pepper. Yeah, I'm old. Sex and anorexia don't usually go all that well together. I've known one or two people who have told me that their sex drive actually went up when they were in malnutrition, but that tends to be the anomaly. Most of us experience a...

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New Book: Rehabilitate, Rewire, Recover!

New Book: Rehabilitate, Rewire, Recover!

Note: this is available for Kindle pre-order right now. Give it about 10 days and the print option will also be available.  I have put all my blogs, podcasts, and YouTune channel information into one book! This book is for adults in recovery from anorexia, as the...

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My cold turkey journey: Fear

My cold turkey journey: Fear

I've talked about stopping compulsive exercise. I get lots of questions on this topic, and requests to elaborate. Here is a little more information on how cold turkey played out for me. In this post I will focus on the obstacles to cold turkey. The things that scared...

read more
Stop gaslighting eating disorder patients (and parents)

Stop gaslighting eating disorder patients (and parents)

Gaslighting = manipulate (someone) by psychological means into questioning their own sanity. Gaslighting is usually thought of in a domestic abuse setting but also happens in many other settings — including therapy. This sort of behaviour is not limited to eating...

read more

Podcast on eating disorders and yoga

I recently was interviewed for The Connected Yoga Teacher. You can listen to the podcast here: We cover my story with anorexia, men with eating disorders, veganism, the words that we use around body size, food, and diet, in the yoga studio and the world, and a ton...

read more
Why BMI is Bullshit

Why BMI is Bullshit

Oh, the magic "BMI 19." "Get to a BMI 19 and you'll be healthy," they tell us. Bullshit. Utter crap. Hear me out... Body Mass Index (BMI) is a very basic, and arguably erroneous, way to estimate the amount of fat that a person has on their body based on their height...

read more
You can be underweight at any size

You can be underweight at any size

  Underweight = being at a weight that is lower than the weight that your body would be if you did not suppress it with restrictive eating or exercise. So, taken from my definition of what...

read more
Don’t be the martyr! Relax! [Video]

Don’t be the martyr! Relax! [Video]

When I was in a state of malnutrition I was forever running about doing chores. I never felt okay about sitting and relaxing. As I explain in this video. Life doesn't have to be like that! Did you know I have a YouTube channel?  [sm-youtube-subscribe]   ...

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